To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; A time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace…. He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. ~ Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11
Yes, that is a LOT of scriptural reference for today but it just felt right. God’s Word is so much more powerful than I could ever write. There is a season for EVERYTHING but He makes everything beautiful in his time. Now is my season of sowing. I woke up early this morning and tried to make myself pray for half an hour…. and I still need to get in another 2 times of prayer. It may not be easy but I want to get back to three times of prayer a day. God told me that more than ever, it is my season to sow. What I sow now will echo for the rest of my life. Finding out my ex essentially replaced me in his plans of a wedding with someone else (one who was divorced in the last year and has two children), God told me “this is your warning. Take this as a lesson- what you choose to do now will affect you forever. Your path will be determined these next few months and you must be careful where and how you sow.”
What a thought!
I feel He is giving me free will to go where I want. If I want favor somewhere- He will give it. If I say Maine, I feel He will open that door. If I say somewhere else, I feel He will open that door. But I need to dig in to Him more than ever so that I tap into His wisdom and choose the path that He knows is best for me- not my own desires!
It’s interesting- I can’t help but be human. My friends told me my ex looked fatter and that his new wife looks pregnant…. in their engagement pics… I’m sure time will eventually tell but regardless… God is God and I need to just wish them well It’s amazing that I don’t hate her, I don’t hate him, I truly do wish them well… Yes, a tiny bit of me is human and can’t help but want to be like “smuck- I’m so much more pretty, every one says” but human gets me no where near where God wants me so I only, rarely, let that surface and when it does, I submit it to God.
So Lord… help me leave all that behind me and sow only good things in my life. Help me sow love and not hate. Help me sow friendship instead of resentment. Help me sow your fruits (Galatians 5:22-23) and not the works of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-21). I love You Jesus and I praise You and I worship You with all that I have.