But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly. Matthew 6:6
These past few months God has been working in my heart on a new level. I know I keep mentioning it, but that emotionally taxing time was truly a turning point for me in my spiritual life. In my pain, I buried myself in Him and turned into the kind of Christian I have always wanted to be. The kind that I loved hanging around but was never willing to sacrifice myself to actually be. One who listens to sermons in her free time, one who prays EVERY day- typically multiple times a day, one who reads her Bible EVERY day, one who seeks for Him in everything- even to tell her what color to wear that day for who knows how He could use it, but He could!
Much of my life I’ve been on the platform at the churches I’ve attended as a singer. I worship Him openly in church and it has encouraged people to do the same when they would see my sincerity towards Him. It was always my prayer that I would disappear while I was up there and He would shine through. Nice as that was, it was only in the most personally painful storm of my life that I finally learned to worship Him in private. One day I found myself driving home after church and He had moved mightily in service and I even received a personal message from Him. During that drive I felt Him say to me:
Although it has always pleased me that you would openly praise and worship me in church, knowing that it allows others to feel free to open up to me too, you are already blessed then. However, when you praise and worship me in your home where no one else can see, for me- your audience of one- then am I truly pleased and will reward you.
I know with all my heart that I had received the word from Him that night specifically because before service I was dancing and jumping and shouting in praise and worship to Him. He rewards openly when you pray, praise, and worship in your closet.
This morning I woke up and spent some time in my prayer closet. God has provided me with a literal closet that I am able to sit in and pray. Thus, early this morning I sat in the closet and for almost half an hour I just imagined about how something that had become messed up in my life could potentially be turned around. As my closest (and even some acquaintances) know, I have quite the imagination. I have a hard time keeping it in check and can have elaborate daydreams of how things will work out in this or that. Finally, I stopped and just talked to God. He moved in to my closet so strongly I felt almost like He was holding me in a hug. It was amazing and I felt Him tell me to get up and dance before Him- to give Him my heart, mind, strength. Later on, my boss complimented me again today for something I did and has given me even more freedom of my time. I know that this favor is not of me. Yes, things look like they are my actions, but truly they are His working through my body. Thank You Lord for Your favor in my life. Thank You Lord for helping me heal, change, and be molded into the woman of God that You want me to be.
Learn to dance in your prayer closets. Learn to do things for the audience of One. When you do, you’ll find that He will bless you beyond what you ever imagined. This does not mean that life will be perfect and you’ll never have any problems, but it does mean that you’ll have peace beyond your circumstances, grace in the storm, joy unspeakable, and You. Will. Have. Victory. I encourage you now to live in the victorious life that God has before you through learning how to make, maintain, and even dance in a prayer closet for Him.