“I came to you in weakness and fear and much trembling, and my message and my proclamation were not with persuasive words of wisdom but with a demonstration of spirit and power, so that your faith might rest not on human wisdom but on the power of God.” ~1 Corinthians 2:3-5
Today I share a story with you. For about a month now, God has been telling me to collect Bible verses – the hopeful, comforting ones – and put together little cards that each have a verse on them, and keep them on hand for whenever I encounter someone who might need God’s word. I’m not one to push my faith on people, so this could potentially be scary, but God just said to make them and hold on to them for the time being….this seemed innocuous enough, so I was all for it.
Today though, God said it was time to put those verses to use. Specifically, to attach them to some extra soda and chips I have around the house, and give them out to the homeless (side note to the future recipients of these: sorry it’s not healthier). See, my roommate’s job sends him home with a box of soda every week, and a box has about 50 cans. Neither of us really drink it much, so suffice to say we are drowning in the stuff.
Anyway, with this directive in mind, I was thinking about who I would ask to join me on this project, and God kept putting a name in my head. It’s a girl I’ve only met twice, and barely know. Not to mention the fact that she’s quite possibly the busiest person in New York. But God kept putting her name in my head. So, I decided to obey. I texted the girl (yes I apologized for creepily talking to her out of the blue), reminded her who I was and what God was telling me, and told her I was letting her know because I felt led of God to do so, so she could see what God told her about it and there you have it.
Over the course of the next few days I hope to hear back from her, and through her response I guess we’ll see how good my spiritual hearing is. If I was wrong and I wasn’t really supposed to tell her, she’ll just refuse, and God will use it as a tool to teach me how to better hear His voice. Either way, it’s a good thing and I’m glad I took a step out in faith.
Also, I have to admit to you all that over the past few months I’ve struggled with some symptoms of depression. I’ve had them off and on, but have never been diagnosed. Mostly I seek God for it, and He gets me through it (thanks Jesus!). However, it has affected my performance around the house. My housekeeping and other roommate duties have not held up to my typical standard. My roommate has been so incredibly patient with me, but I know it wears on him. So, I’ve decided to pray about it with him. I’ve always prided myself on an ability to cook and keep a house, but you know what? If I can lay down that pride, and come to God saying I haven’t been doing that great of a job and I do need help even with non-spiritual tasks, God will get the glory for any success in this house. And if I have to trade some pride so God gets more glory and I become a testimony just by going through my day, that’s a hit I am happy to take. My transparency might be temporarily embarrassing, but I trust God will take care of it. So it’s time to let Him!!
I’ll keep you all posted as to what happens in the days to come. Meanwhile, today I invite you to check in with God, and just spend some time listening to His voice. Even if it’s just a few minutes, He desires to spend time with us. When we give Him that time, He guides us from there. What’s He telling you today? Are you ready and willing to hear it and follow? Best of luck, and God bless. May God do a work in your heart as profoundly as He is in mine.