Waiting on the Lord

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. ~Isaiah 40:31 

Having been on such a wonderful, happy high from Jesus just pouring things into my life… today it just suddenly felt like everything was fake and a facade.  I barely slept last night, this weekend I didn’t really pray like I have been the past two months, and I realized that these guys most likely aren’t going to work out.  Premature judgement? Yes.  But sometimes, once you’re in a thinking pit, it’s hard to get out. I want to believe that He holds all wonderful things in our future- waiting for us to be ready to receive them.  I want to believe that in the end, there is an Isaac who will finally see ME and love me for who I am.  However, I just can’t shake the feeling that no one’s ever going to see this heart of mine for what it really is- someone who lives for Jesus with all that she can.

He quietly whispers to me “lay this at My feet my child, bring this to me.” 

Jesus, 

I lay my heart as an open book before these readers right now.  I pray that somehow, someone who is also struggling to just get through this day or tomorrow also decides to just lay it all at Your feet.  As the song says, I know that You are for me. I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness.  Whether a man ever sees my true worth or not, I know that YOU do.  I have felt You tell me how pleased You are that in my times of pain and sorrow, I chose to worship You.  Lord, in this time of feeling strangely, I choose to worship You.  I love You Lord. Despite all the mess of my past, despite everything You love me.  I thank You and I lay my life at Your feet once more.  I lay all that I am and will become in Your capable hands and just ask that You hold me up when I cannot stand any longer.  Lord, I will wait on You.  I will wait on Your promises.  I will wait on Your faithfulness.  I will worship You as I wait. 

I will wait. 

~Rebekah M. 

Thank you Catherine for telling me about this song! 🙂

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