“The Lord will give you the bread you need and the water for which you thirst. No longer will your Teacher hide himself, but with your own eyes you shall see your Teacher. While from behind, a voice shall sound in your ears: “This is the way; walk in it.” when you would turn to the right or to the left.” ~Isaiah 30:20-21
As you may have read in my post Declaring Citizenship, God has been really drawing my attention to all those moments in a day where I’m consumed by the world and not by my Father. Rebekah M just posted yesterday about a need to be separate from the world as well, to be in it and be a light in it but not to be of it. Is anyone else seeing a theme here???
Today God has been stretching that a bit further, essentially saying that He’s shone the mirror of His word on my heart. He’s reflected it back to me so I can see it. He’s entered me, perfect in His light, and shown me all of the dark places that are still there. Every spot of darkness shuts Him out, because He is the light. He’s told us that where there is light, darkness cannot enter. Lately He’s been saying to me that the opposite is also true. Where I harbor darkness, His light can expose it, but nothing more. For Him to cast it away, I have to let Him. I have to invite Him in to do more work. And I have to let those areas go.
My heart then, is a direct reflection of my choices. And of course I do have a choice. In every moment I can choose the world or I can choose God, but I can’t choose both. Lately, God’s been telling me that while my prayer life has become much stronger, and I can bind demons with my words, so too can I bind God with my actions and my choices. My heart yearns for Him and yet blocks Him at the same time.
So, there’s only one thing for me to do. Change my choices. For me, such changes come about in a day of fasting. God leads me to more fasting as He sees fit, or sometimes just the day is sufficient. Either way, tomorrow I will be shutting out the physical needs, the worldly and fleshly needs and wants that I have. Instead I’ll be depending on God for the spiritual nourishment that I really need. I need to get more kingdom-minded, so my desires can match up to the Lord’s a little bit better. If I am to be a citizen of Heaven, I need to see with Heaven’s eyes, and desire what Heaven desires.
Too long has God had to share my heart with the rest of me. He is telling me now that as a jealous God, He has had enough. He will no longer be bound by me, a worthless creature without Him. He desires my whole heart and will settle for nothing less. Fasting tomorrow will help me regain some focus on Him, and ultimately fill me with enough spiritual nourishment to overtake the darkness and cast it away. At the very least it’ll be a start!
I humbly invite you to join me in this. When I fast, I typically don’t eat any solid food for 24 hours and see where God leads me from there. It’s usually somewhere amazing, if you need some incentive. 🙂 I’m not asking for anything drastic though. Maybe you will just stay off of facebook for 24 hours. Maybe you’ll just stay off of facebook for a couple of hours. Maybe don’t send any texts. Maybe skip lunch. Or maybe dessert. Heck, skip salad. Just make a conscious decision to skip something for a certain time frame. Make sure that whenever you start thinking about what it is you’re skipping, let it be a call to prayer. And if you opt not to fast, maybe just say a prayer every time you eat for 24 hours. Whatever it is, allow God to open you up and bring you closer to His kingdom. Let’s give ourselves fully to the One who made us, and not make Him share our hearts any longer. He created us and saved us and granted us eternal life; surely He is worth it!
Whether or not you feel called to join me in fasting, pray that in your choices and your actions for the next 24 hours, you are not binding His will over you but granting Him full access to your heart. And if you need extra prayer, for anything at all, I’d love to give it to you!!!! Write to me at firstname.lastname@example.org – I would love to hear what God’s been telling you, what you’ve been going through, or anything you may need prayer for.
I just feel God saying it is time to look deeply at our choices, words, and actions. They are true reflections of our hearts. The question is, do they reflect Him?
Good luck, and God bless!