“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
I have been feeling a sense of limbo lately. I’ve enjoyed closeness with God, but also some seemingly conflicting messages. I’ve felt Him tell me to move, and also tell me to wait. The latest necessity in my life has been finding employment; I’ve felt God point in the direction of certain places, only to have them not pan out.
I feel like I need these things – I have student loans to pay off and bills to pay, so an income is necessary. At the same time, I want to move in a direction that God is leading me in.
I can’t help but feel that this is a test. Can I take these daily problems and stressors of life, and trust God for them fully? If I believed fully in who God says He is, there would be no reason to worry, because I would know that God has it in His hands. God has moved so much in my life lately and my walk has definitely grown closer to Him. So on some level I feel like this is a test to see if I can hold on to those things God has shown me in the face of the worries of the world. It isn’t easy, but today I’m choosing to cling to the things God has told me. I’m choosing to submit and relinquish my worry and doubt. I’m choosing to trust God and believe that He is who He says He is, that He is my ultimate Provider, and that His timeline is perfect.
Jesus, I open my heart fully to You, to expose the nagging worry and doubts. God, show me how to walk fully in You and to submit these things so I can depend completely and confidently on Your ability to provide for me. Jesus I trust You and Your plan for my life. You know my desires and my needs, and I know You will point me in the right direction as you see fit. Today I choose to stand on that and let You move. I love you God and I claim victory over this test.
Anybody else in the same boat? Just a place of limbo and uncertainty in terms of where you’re called to be right now? Write to me at firstname.lastname@example.org; I’d love to pray for you!