Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. ~ Matthew 5:15
All day the song by Britt Nicole with the above title (you can listen at the end of this post) has been on my mind. With everything swirling around me- I’m starting my monthly moves tomorrow until mid-2013 when I graduate, my parents are flying out of the country because my grandmother is very ill, I have multiple guys in my life that I’m interested in very much but don’t know which one I want more, I’m trying to get paperwork done for next year, trying to figure out where I want to work once I graduate, and more- I’m trying to keep myself grounded in Christ. It seems the things in this world can make it SO hard to live for Him at times though. I don’t want in all this spinning to lose sight of Him. Regardless of everything, I know He is my past, present, and future.
I appreciate the guys right now so much because they have been helping to urge me towards Christ. We exchange sermons (one of them is even going through a sermon series with me), talk of Jesus, and they even help relieve some of my stress with a good laugh here and there 🙂 However, even with them doing this I don’t want to lose focus on spending time with HIM. That was a downfall with my ex and I- I started letting him consume my every thought to the point where I lost sight of Him- Jesus.
The pressures in this world seem to be trying to buckle me and crumble me to pieces. Even if she barely played a role in my life, my grandma is still my grandma and I don’t know how well I can handle that loss in my life right now. I just had a huge life change a few months ago with my ex dumping me after all his promises and talks of the future. To go through my parents hurting because of the loss of my grandma isn’t something that I feel I can do right now- and yet God whispers to me that He is sufficient. Should she die- He will hold us all up. Should she live- He will dance and rejoice with us. Jesus is enough.
So I come to the point of it all…
Let me burn SO brightly in this world for you that the cares and troubles of my life burn away. Let my light shine so brightly for you that I start lighting those around me on fire for you. I want to set this world on fire for You. I want Your love and mercy and grace to burn so strongly in me that an uncontrollable fire catches on those around me and they can no longer contain You in their lives. Spill forth in me. Even with everything else swirling around me in my life- let me just burn all the brighter for You as the cares of this world fuel my fire for You. I love You Jesus with all my heart.