Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross. ~ Philippians 2:5-8
Last night at midweek service the preacher spoke about “Christ-like humility.” So much of that sermon made me think of my ex. The more time that passes, the more I see just how bad and dysfunctional my relationship was. I loved that guy, but he clearly did not love me the way I needed. I would have given him anything and everything and yet he never wanted to see things my way. He and I had multiple disagreements and one was wrapped around what true humility is.
In my mind, it takes true humility to give credit to God in all things. I’m in medical school and my ex once told me that I had to stop telling people that I was going to be a doctor. His friends were attacking my character after having hung out with me less than a dozen times and he said he refused to stand up for me because they were right- I needed to be humbled since I openly told people I was going to be a doctor. Anyone who KNOWS me though knows that I freely talk about it because it is my testimony. I cannot thank God enough for this life He has given me. The road isn’t easy but because of all the times that I should have failed and didn’t, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He has called me to this profession. I liberally say that it is because of God and God alone that I am passing medical school. It is my heart’s desire that in the greatest times of pain and sorrow- God’s love would shine forth through me to my future patients and comfort them… and perhaps they will find THE Comforter through something I might say to them.
The preaching last night confirmed the very thing that I felt in my heart since the moment my ex reprimanded me for telling people I’m going to be a doctor: true humility is not caring how we look (either prideful or ridiculous) but in all things- pointing towards Christ! True humility doesn’t care whether what we say makes us look good or bad, just that does this statement give glory to God? Does what we say inspire others to seek Him more? Does what we say encourage others to put all things in His hands? I love telling people I’m going to be a doctor, especially young people, because I want them to be encouraged to know that God has a purpose for us all and that He can and will lead us to our true callings. Not everyone is called to be a pastor, evangelist, or preacher. Some of us are called to work in hospitals, police stations, classrooms, and more. If every church was filled only with preachers and pastors who would be in the pews?
He once taught a lesson (that we both prayed over and I ended up suggesting the same bible passage he was looking at even though I was all the way in another country) that went perfectly in line with something that was preached in a big conference only a few weeks later. As I went to talk about how amazing God was to have made it that my ex had just taught on that and clearly God was doing something here, my ex stopped me because his friend was in the car who didn’t go to his church. It wasn’t humble to talk about things like that. In my book, anything that stops you from giving glory to God is bad. We should, as I Thessalonians 5:18 says, give thanks to God in ALL things for that is the will of God. I believe this to mean more than just “in good times and in bad, let’s give thanks” but I take as a charge to find as many reasons as possible to give God thanks. If this makes you look good- give Him thanks. If you sound ridiculous for having gotten into a car accident but God gave you a miracle- give Him thanks anyhow! Whether what you say brings about death of any form (bodily, reputation-wise, relationships) or not, know that true humility is to live for Christ and Christ alone in all things and to do what He wants regardless of anything else.
True humility in my book is no longer caring how it makes YOU look or what happens to you, but how it makes HIM look and how it exalts HIM.
I thank You that I no longer have anyone in my life telling me to stop talking of the wonderful miracle of a life You’ve given me. That I am free from those who would silence my testimony. I love You and thank You for all that You have done for me in my life. I praise You that when we truly learn how to allow ourselves to disappear, when we can truly come to the point where we no longer care how our statements make us look (either good or bad), or whether something for You causes us to live or die, You can truly be exalted. I love You Jesus with all my heart.