And why behold you the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but consider not the beam that is in your own eye? ~ Matthew 7:3

I recently was asked to testify at a church I was going to since it was my last service with them (another month another hospital). It was literally “okay, everyone sit down and will [Rebekah M] please give a testimony since it is your last service with us?” No time for preparation. And so I stumbled through trying to encourage others that I’ve found that as I struggle to keep God first, even when it’s 10PM at night and I’m realizing that it’s been hours since I last spoke with God, He’s still happy to hear from me.  I happened to mention that I don’t understand how people with families do this since I’m having a hard time as is.

This led one of the members of that church to message me and say that he felt it was my chosen profession that is causing this in my life. As I’ve mentioned before, I’m currently in medical school. Yes, it’s going to get harder before it gets easier, but when God sets something up in your life you dig in, grab His hand, and go along for the ride He’s taking you on. To try to tell a future doctor that it is the profession they have chosen that is taking them away from God and that it will only continually get worse when they themselves are NOT a doctor is incredibly frustrating to be on the receiving end of.

The biggest problem I have with what he has said to me is to continually refer to me becoming a doctor as “the profession you have chosen” when I took two years between college and medical school to figure out if I should even apply to medical school then, when I was applying I asked God to get me in if He wanted it.  Beyond that, when I was flying out of the city of my current medical school, I looked down and I said to God “Lord, if this is truly what You want for me, You know- I’d be stepping out in complete faith- no friends, no family, no church. I’d be completely reliant on You if You send me there.” Lo and behold, that was the school I ended up going to.  As He continued to bless me with passing tests when I knew I shouldn’t, and even helped me in a situation with a staff member, it continued to solidify in my heart that I am in His Will.  The churches I have had to visit because of being sent from hospital to hospital have always been His timing and I know His hand is on my life.

All that said, this only pushes me to solidify within myself to be mindful of how I think of others and their walk with Christ.  I must not judge others and their walk because I do not live their life.  I don’t know what God has and has not called them to.  I cannot say it is not the road God has for them.  Let us all keep in mind that we should be careful of judging others and their walk for only God knows what is in the heart and we should look at our own walk before looking at others.

Rebekah M.