Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. ~ Ps 27:14
So this morning I woke up and spent time in my prayer closet. I wanted to seek God on things for my future and give Him my day. When I finished praying, I got on my computer and saw the post from Rebekah A and it spoke exactly to where I am now.
Things may be in the works for some change in my life soon and I really wanted God to be in the midst of it all but I knew that in order for it to have any chance, my ex must be SO far out of my mind that he doesn’t even come up. I don’t know if that’s possible, but as I read the post I said that prayer that Rebekah A wrote and gave it all over to God again. If I am to move forward, my past must be so far behind me that I can’t even see it anymore.
Today itself has been an interesting day, my legs are aching so badly from having gone on a jog yesterday, I had to work on a powerpoint for the doctor I’m working with even though I’m here for research and this is completely unrelated, and I didn’t end up going to Walmart because it was pouring rain.
Then… I received a text that the very situation I had been wondering about and praying over lately and one of the very specific answers occurred today. I don’t really want to write it all out right now unless things become a little more concrete but it certainly felt like a sign was happening. Only Jesus knows where this all will lead, but I find myself in a place of needing to just trust in God that if I pray for His Will and continually check to be in His Will… then it will come to pass as He wishes.
So much of my past mistakes have been wrapped up in thinking that I was in the Will of God and running headstrong in that direction without checking with Him if He had any turns to take. Yes, He sometimes says take that road… but sometimes there are forks in the road and instead of checking in with Him we continue on the way WE think we should go.
I pray that You continue to lead and guild me in this situation. As I wait on Your final answer on how everything should turn out, I lay it all at Your feet to work it out as You will. Let me continually be seeking what You want instead of my own wishes and desires. Help me seek You with all that I have and watch as everything else falls into place. Let me live Matthew 6:33 (Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you). I love You Jesus with all my heart.