Usually when I post I do a lot of storytelling, and talking about what God has shown me. This time around, I’m simply asking for prayer from the readers.
My roommate goes to a swimsuit pageant every year. This year, I’m going with him. I’m a little bit nervous about being a Christian at a bikini pageant, and it’s important to me that I am a strong Christian while I’m there. I want any of these girls who might be thinking twice about a career based on prancing around in bikinis, to see me and see that there is a peace and light in me. God’s peace and God’s light. I want to be a revelation of God to anybody I come across this week who might not know Him yet. I want to be God’s vessel.
To do this, I’ll be facing a lot of my own insecurities and old habits head on. And I’m worried that I’ll resort to my wavering ways. By wavering I mean this: usually, if someone asks, sure I’m Christian and I can talk about God all day long. But in action and in other conversation topics, I’ll sometimes censor my Christianity in an effort to fit in better with my surroundings. I drop my heavenly citizenship and become a full-fledged citizen of the world.
I feel like God is telling me that this is no longer acceptable. For me, it’s time to be marked by God and only God, and never to waver from Him. To be used by God, I have to be one with Him in my heart. I so desperately want to be used by Him. The only question is, can I stay ‘Christian enough’ to do it?? Will I stick with my usual old ways, or will I stand boldly and strongly for God and make my walk even stronger from it?
Jesus, I pray for boldness in You this week. I pray for Your presence to be with me, and for my confidence and self-image to be given to me by You alone. I pray that I would walk in pure love this week, and also in righteousness. I pray for discernment and wisdom over conversations and situations, and that I would see clearly through Your eyes and Your heart. I pray that You would give me necessary words to say. I pray that I not fall into the trap of trying to fit in, but that I have my eyes firmly fixed on You. I pray that I may stand on Your rock, even if those around me are sinking in sand. I pray to have You in Your rightful place this week – right in the center of my heart. Jesus I love You with everything I have. I pray for the strength to show it.
And if any of you have a spare few seconds to pray for me too, I’d appreciate it! And if any of you are in a similar situation where censoring your faith seems necessary, let me know at firstname.lastname@example.org and I’ll pray for you too!