His Hand In All Things

“Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but to the interests of others.” ~Philippians 2:3-4

The past few weeks have been crazy for me. My roommate’s main aide was hit by a bus almost exactly two weeks ago. Since then, I have been at his house almost every day, sitting with him while his wife ran errands or got work done. He is still having intense dizzy spells and still can’t walk unassisted, so it’s best not to leave him by himself. So I’ve been helping him out.

In his absence, my roommate called up a former aide of his (we’ll call him by his initial, “R”) to come back and work the shifts that G (the one who got hit by the bus) was working.  R agreed, saying money was tight and he needed all the work possible. What a blessing!

But once he started, R was constantly late, leaving my roommate stranded in bed or at work for long periods of time (he works 10-hour days as it is). He left a mess everywhere he went. He was resentful of the fact that my roommate’s condition had deteriorated a bit and he needed more help with things than he did before.  So after about a week and a half of this, my roommate sat him down and talked about whether this would work in the long run, and his need for R to be responsible. R got really upset and pitched a fit, insulting both me and the previous aide to get the attention off of himself. He even had to step out for a bit and cool off once they got back to the house. However, the next morning, a Sunday morning, R came in 20 minutes early. What a blessing!

But later that day, as I was getting ready to go to a new church, I got a text from R. He wouldn’t be able to go pick up my roommate from work, but would be able to meet us at the house and help him shower, etc. Fine. No church for me, unfortunately, but fine. So I picked up my roommate, brought him home and fed him dinner, and then we waited for R to come by. And we waited. And waited. Now it’s Wednesday, and we still haven’t heard from the guy. He was paid in advance, and had borrowed a few things from us that will probably never be returned. Without a stable aide situation, many of these duties now fall to me (he has an aide who normally comes two nights per week who has been stopping by on his way to and from work to do the lifting – I’m not physically strong enough to lift a grown man. The other 5 nights and all 7 mornings were G’s, and now supposed to be R’s, responsibility).

So, between taking over for our now non-existent aide, going into Manhattan and back out to queens twice per day, helping out G, trying to track down R, facilitating the hire of a new aide, while still trying to keep things running here at home, suffice to say I have had a crazy few weeks! Not to mention some very short nights! I never thought that I would consider my unemployment to be a blessing.  But honestly, between the extra duties and the construction on my subway line, if I had an actual job I needed to report to I’m not sure where that would leave us. I’d probably have to either quit or take early vacation time. Just extra proof that God’s timing is perfect and He really does have a plan! How amazing is He?!?

Through all this, I have to keep calm and present a fairly happy face. I am the one constant that my roommate still has. G has been in agony, depressed, and despondent, and his injuries have taken a toll on my roommate too – besides his own parents (one deceased and one now in a nursing home with Alzheimer’s), G was probably the one person in his life who would voluntarily go above and beyond for him without asking for something in return. The loss of his presence in this house has been profound. So it is up to me to keep everybody’s spirits up.

I may or may not have helped the situation by telling G that he walked like a zombie and all he needed was some grotesque makeup and he could be on the TV show The Walking Dead. Don’t worry, he laughed.

Anyway, despite my efforts to be a cheerful giver (and a stand-in television casting director), I have been a bit stressed. I prefer being busy to having too much free time, but it is a lot of increased demand on such short notice. And I’ve really only been getting about 4-5 hours of sleep per night. I’m stressed and I’m tired! But then I remember Rebekah at the well, the namesake of this blog, doing all this extra labor for a stranger, who she only came across because she was doing her father’s business, and my spirit seems to come full circle. I read this verse, and let God in to do the work in my heart. This whole situation has been a true lesson in what’s important in life, in how temporary and precious it all is. It’s been a lesson in giving to others beyond what I would have rationed out to them. It’s been a lesson in humility and having the heart of a true servant. I have less time to spend with God than before, but the growth in my heart has been profound. I knew already that I was called to serve God – now I’m just getting a broader idea than ever of what servanthood means.

And that is definitely something to praise God for!

God bless!

~Rebekah A

6 thoughts on “His Hand In All Things

  1. Not to contradict you, you may feel you have less time to spend with God but actually you are spending more time with Him within your heart, He has given you more responsibility, and with the acceptance of those responsibilities, you are growing into a beautiful blossom. Within a parable while the master away, the servants were were given talents, when the master returned more responsibity was given to those who earned the right to carry the additional load. You are blooming providing nectar for the bees who come to make honey for the queens hive. God has many worker bees within His hive.

    • Amen! And actually, I realized that as I was writing it. I fully intended to just rant about how stressed out I was, maybe ask for prayer….but the more I wrote the more I realized how much this has given me cause to praise Him. I don’t have extended amounts of time to sit in prayer or meditate on Him, but He is flexible enough to take what I CAN give Him, and to use it to deepen my relationship with Him and my calling as a Christian. I knew that God was in every part of my life, but prior to now I’ve always taken a step back to say a quick prayer, or to just focus on Him. And He is showing me that yes there’s a time to grow through those things, but there’s a also time to grow through action. And by dedicating myself to others and truly serving them, it’s opened up a whole new avenue for God to grow me and just let His light flow through me. It’s been awesome. 🙂

    • You bring up a good point and a question that I actually used to ask regularly (I went through an agnostic period). The truth is, in this case, that I don’t know enough about the other people involved to know why the accident happened. But what I do know is that God has been with us, helping and protecting us, every step of the way in the aftermath! I’m not sure why the accident occurred. But I know that nobody involved will be forsaken or abandoned in their time of need. But if you want to chat about it some more, of course your comments are welcome, but also definitely feel free to email me at being.rebekah.a@gmail.com!

      • God clearly shows us in His Word that not just sin but pain, anguish, death, and temptations came from the fall of man. We all fall short of Glory and it is only in our trust in Him can it be made right. It is by Him allowing this after our choices are made as man that we grow in character and grow closer to Him. He does not want us to be in pain. He wants us healed. So many “man choices” – starting with Adam and Eve and now to the choices we make in our own lives – are followed my consequences, but all can be covered in grace.

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