Tonight I hung out with that guy… the one from my previous posts that I almost dated but he doesn’t believe in God. It was nice at first but towards the middle he tried to kiss me and ended up giving me a peck on the lips. Very innocent and yet I soon started to sob. I told him I was sorry but I didn’t know how to do this friends thing. I didn’t know how to hang out with him and still be just friends (when clearly both of us still kind of want more). Things hadn’t changed- he still didn’t believe in God.
He quickly apologized and I ended up telling him that God loves Him. More than I or anyone ever could. That that’s what this weekend is about: God loved us so much He came to earth to die for our sins.
I kept crying off and on for a bit because I could see that he doesn’t even see himself for what he is. He doesn’t know his worth. I realized i know my worth because I know I am loved unconditionally by God Himself. Jesus Christ loves me with an everlasting love that supercedes anything this world tries to tell me.
Readers… pray for him if you will. This guy in my life. He doesn’t know Jesus and no matter how good he is, he still needs God. We’ve all sinned. We all need grace. Our good works don’t balance out the sin, only God’s shed blood.
Thank You Jesus for Your grace and mercy. Thank You for dying for me.