I hear stories sometimes of people who sort of believe in Jesus but they need one last piece of proof. Something to solidify it in their minds that Jesus is definitely there. Or they don’t quite believe but they want to.
So what to do when you want proof of this supposed King of Kings? You do something big. Something crazy and life-changing. Something unplanned. I mean, God’s big, right? So by putting Him on the spot in a big way, having Him do something that coincidence and mere people wouldn’t be able to work out, you’re getting proof of His existence and His interest in your life. Right?
So you do your big life-changing gesture. You make your move. And the Almighty God responds with…..nothing. Nothing but crickets from the spiritual realm. Were you wrong about Him after all? Is this God guy just a myth?
I assure you, He’s not just a myth. He’s there. He watched every second of your big gesture. This I know. As for why He didn’t respond…it’s a big question. A vulnerable question, even. And there are a couple of answers. The first is the literal one. We’re sort of told in the Bible not to put God on the spot like that.
But the real reason I think, is that the big gestures aren’t necessary. If Jesus responded to all of those, we’d start thinking we needed to do them. But it’s not about that. Jesus loves us. Us. He loved us so much He made us. Zephaniah 3:17 says “He will take great delight in you; in His love He will no longer rebuke you but will rejoice over you with singing.” Just think about that. Jesus, the same King of Kings you thought you needed to do something crazy for, is enamored with you. He looks at you, and His heart is so touched by love that He’s moved to song. Not because you make the big gestures, not because you put Him on the spot. He loves you that much simply because you exist. And He wants to spend time with you. Even if it’s just 5 minutes per day. You are worth it to Him. We don’t having to go seeking Him or searching for Him. He’s already there.
Yes, some people are called to lay down their lives in different ways. Some people are called to different places. But they are called there as a means of serving God, not as a means of proving He exists. It’s different. Making the big gestures without truly ‘knowing’ Jesus is like buying all the furniture before you have a house. It typically doesn’t work well.
So if any of you are struggling with that, or unsure about where Jesus is in your life, it can be a pretty unsettling feeling. Extremely unsettling. And extremely unsettling feelings can cause us to do extreme things. But if you fight that urge, if instead of searching for Him you quiet yourself before Him, you’ll find He was there the whole time. Instead of a big action, give Him intimacy. Look around you – at the flowers, the trees, people helping one another. God is in all of that. All around you. And He’s with you every second, knocking on the door of your heart.
Sometimes, it doesn’t take a big gesture. It just takes opening the door.
If you’re struggling with any of this….with Jesus, with His presence and your place in it all….let me know! Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I’d love to chat with you and pray for you!