Jesus,
I was verbally attacked this weekend by a source I never would have expected. What seemed a foggy path turned crystal clear but also the road not taken looked more and more dark. It seemed as if the darkness was reaching out to get me. The pain of it being insinuated that I would never find someone really hurt. Something in me longs for Isaac- in the right time! I am in no rush to start a relationship, I just wish the right one was on the horizon at least. But here and now I ask You to just renew my hope. Renew in my heart the fact that I have hope in You. Renew in me that even if I am single for all my life- You will give me a full life. I will serve You no matter what. I am Yours no matter what. But Lord, I just pray right now for my faith and hope to be renewed that You hold only good things for me. To let the accusations and barbs fall away.
Renew me Jesus,
Rebekah M.
Being Rebekah 
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time Sweetie – and feeling alone. You are on the right track to accept that this may be God’s plan for you but still hold onto to the faith that better things will come to you by His will. I hope that in this prayer you’ve found comfort and that the days ahead become easier for you to bear…and that you don’t feel so alone. As someone who has felt that way a great deal of the time I wouldn’t wish it on anyone! God Bless you Rebekah!!!! xo
Thank you for your words! Yes, God has helped me. I know part of it is just that I’m so busy, there is little room for thinking at times haa haa Regardless, my God is good- even when people are attacking me and I know the same is true for us all! 🙂
Hi Rebekah, I am sorry that people can be so cruel and judgemental. I once felt like you I was always in and out of the hospital and it was so hard to be sick and watch other people have boyfriends or husbands there to support them when I was always alone. I was always busy fighting some disease and it was hard to meet people on the days I felt better. I always talked to the Lord about this and I would pray every night to meet someone but by my late twenties I figured it was the Lord’s plan for me to stay single. But the Lord never forgets are deepest desires even when we stop talking about it and in the Lords timing I did meet a wonderful man whom I have been married to for the last 14 years and he is my best friend. The Lord never forgot about me and I am sure he will not forget about you. Sometimes we just have to wait for the Lord’s timing to be right. It is my hope that you will just forget about the awful things that person has said I too have suffered at the hands of some well meaning Christians who have told me that I am sick all the time because I am full of sin and not following the Lord and if I would come back to him he would heal me. Nothing could be further from the truth. The only way I get through each day is walking closely with the Lord and delighting in his presence. Just because I walk with the Lord doesn’t mean he will heal my diseases but he does promise that his grace is sufficient for each day and I know it will be the same with you. God Bless
Thank you so much for your response! It gives me hope 🙂 I’m looking for a ministry partner. One who will help me reach out to the lost. One who will be my prayer partner. One who will help me live out loud for Jesus with everything we have. When one is weak, I pray that the other will be strong. But I guess in my mind I sometimes wonder, am I supposed to be single forever? Perhaps no one will ever see me for who I really am. And then someone points out the odds are against me and in my humanness it just makes me see all the reasons why I’ll most likely never be found. But then- then- Jesus steps in with people like you to help me see- it’s possible. He’s the God of all that seems impossible.
I will join with you in praying to the Lord for the right partner, sometimes we can’t rush God’s time table but we can have faith that he hears our prayers, and is concerned about our happiness and well being. We serve a loving God who wants the best for us so all things are possible! God Bless
I will be praying for you dear one! May you find comfort and strength in the arms of the One who loves you the most. Thank you for sharing this deep personal hurt. May you feel the love of Jesus touch your life deeply and intimately.
Thank you! I’m so grateful for all the prayers of the readers and those who reach out back to me. What a great God to send you and others to encourage me 🙂
Father, help us to know that what YOU say about us is the most true thing about us. In fact, it is the only thing that, at the end of the day, really matters.
I stand with everyone else who has surrounded this dear sister, shields in place to protect her. Remind her that in Your eyes, she is “holy, blameless, and above reproach.” (Col. 1:22)
Thank You for this little shaking of her faith. May it shake out all that should be shaken, and result in a purifying of her understanding of You.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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