As time continues to go on and guy continues to keep things very foggy I can’t help but feel God calling to my heart to just trust in Him. I do not feel a leading/guiding to either kick him out of my life or to contact him- just to let him contact me if he will. As time goes on, I keep feeling that He’s asking me to let Him be my Alpha and Omega even in thought and day. To be my first thought when I wake up and my last thought when I wake up. Jesus wants to be my first action in the day and the last action at night. To seek Him with every thing I am at all times of the day- for in Him is the peace I am seeking. In Him is the stillness of mind that I am seeking. In Him, I will never have to worry about if he’s actually going to call when he says he might. I will never have to wonder what he is thinking- for He loves me unconditionally. He will never let me down. He will never hurt me or abandon me.
Jesus, be my alpha and omega of my every day.