So, the last time I posted, I hadn’t seen Bradley (a homeless man who’s been on my heart all fall) at all. Now I see him almost regularly again – which is amazing and I totally count it as progress – but he’s always asleep. I leave things for him – food, mostly – but I don’t wake him up. I would think that sleep on the streets is tough to come by and I never have the heart to wake him. But at least he’s there. I’m still just trusting God to move in this.
To be honest, the waiting game is a bit frustrating. I was so sure that God wanted me to move on this, and move now. It felt like it was meant to be now. And posting publicly about visions that God had given me, posting what He wanted me to do, and then having no results to show for it…..felt almost like I was letting God down somehow. Like I was hurting His credibility for the masses. I know that that’s not possible really. God is bigger than this. But still, that’s how it feels – like I’m doing something wrong and I don’t know what.
So I’m trying to wait patiently (fairly successfully) and cheerfully (not so successfully), and just trusting God to work and to move. He can and I know it. So I’m trying to just let Him and praying that He gives me grace to wait!