I was starting to lose hope. Hope that God can provide me with not only what I need, but even some of the things I want in a guy. Hope that God will provide above and beyond all that I ask or think. Yet tonight on my drive in to work, I had a moment, one where I poured out my heart. I chose to hope. To not give up on the idea that God can give better than this world can give. That guy from a year ago, he recently started texting me again, I never initiate conversation, but I hate feeling rude and ignoring him. However, I see now that it’s allowed in my life to see- who will I choose? God and His hope or to allow the world make me believe that God cannot offer BETTER than what the world can.
Recently You have had multiple people speak messages of holding on to hope into my life. I believe that this is because You knew what was brewing. Although I did not see it, You knew that the guy from a year ago would try to start contacting me again and in my sadness over the loss of the other guy… but here I sit and re-consecrate my belief that You can give me better than this world can. That You love me and that I have hope in You. Help me to just let go and seek after You with abandon. I love You Jesus and I thank You.