Rebekah M. is currently on a Medical Missions trip in Western Europe. She gave me (Rebekah L) permission to post this reflection she wrote chronicling her first day of the clinic on her behalf. Her access to wifi is limited, but we hope to be hearing more about her trip as it progresses!
As I’m winding down from my first day in clinic, I can’t help but reflect on such a crazy day. It seems the people of the village think at times that we can offer better than their own system and although they may get better access to us, some have come in methotrexate for their RA, x-rays for their back, and even problems with their legs after a stroke, hoping we American doctors can do better. It is hard to come to a place of recognizing I have nothing to offer. I had one patient who had no desire to live and the only thing I could offer her was prayer and the promise that God loves her. With tears in my eyes, I told her of how I too had been in a place of wishing I was dead and how God had been my strength.
It is weird both in acknowledging that I had that time in my life but too… To use it to reach out to a patient in which I have nothing else to offer her. Honestly… The time in my life still feels so fresh, the rawness of it still lingers. I had no plans to kill myself, just no plans to protect myself from death. In my heart I welcomed it. I wanted to be dead. But God gave me a hope and a dream.
Today I did the morning devotional and spoke of meeting our daily appointment with God- a chance to minister to a soul and in doing so live the words of Jesus how in ministering to others, we are actually ministering to Him. I challenged myself and implored to others in joining me in meeting that appointment.
I think she was one of them and I pray my words reached her.
My final thought from today is from my favorite moment of the day- the Ukrainian counterparts of the team led night worship and it was amazing. So passionate and full of life, I loved seeing and hearing God worshiped in a language I didn’t know, yet I completely understood and joined with in the spirit.
Thank You Jesus for this day.
Thank You for my appointments with You.
Thank You for this abundant life.