So things have just been a mess these last few months. The guy I WAS talking to quickly moved on to another girl is actually already married to her… within 24hrs of meeting her in person they were engaged and in that same month they were married. Resentment for how he could so quickly move on has been hard to deal with. I want to hate him so much for making me feel duped and easily forgotten.
But hate is not of God.
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. ~ Matt 5:44-45
In the midst of learning to forgive and the big one is to forget (especially with my friends giving me updates on things like how he and his wife aren’t even living together yet and how she was yelling at one of them for something silly), I’m trying to apply to new jobs (residency is almost over!), I have multiple guys that I’m getting to know and haven’t been friendzoned yet, and work is just… always rough. It has been emotionally draining to be on the palliative service this month where every day I’m in the hospital I’m looking at dying people. One was up and about two weeks before, went to the hospital for chest pain, found to have horrible stomach cancer that was everywhere, and about to pass away when I met them.
I need God to center me. I need Him to help me find my way in all of this mess. I need Jesus to be the center of my life.
Feeling a bit lost in the midst of all this change,